Budget Talk

Today is the budget announcement for 2018. I was not watching it. Just get the update from my colleagues and friends.

I'm in a big trouble. I don't start my proposal yet. It's haunting me but I'm super lazy to do it. I'm demotivated most of the time. I'm pissed over the things I'm not supposed to. I could be over reacting. I hate to read other people's messages, WhatsApps, comments etc.

I'm getting worse as the days goes by. I feel so alone and lonely. I feel like I have no friends to turn to especially during my downs.. I do have a lot of friends to be with during happy times. I'm not good at expressing my true feelings. I always potray the good side of me.

I can't tell to my friend's face that I dislike the way she bitch at me. Not a real true friend indeed. She ignores when we need help.. and come back begging for help from us when she is in trouble. She seems like a fake. Well I cannot distinguish between fake and real side of her nowadays.