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Today is the budget announcement for 2018. I was not watching it. Just get the update from my colleagues and friends. I'm in a big trouble. I don't start my proposal yet. It's haunting me but I'm super lazy to do it. I'm demotivated most of the time. I'm pissed over the things I'm not supposed to. I could be over reacting. I hate to read other people's messages, WhatsApps, comments etc. I'm getting worse as the days goes by. I feel so alone and lonely. I feel like I have no friends to turn to especially during my downs.. I do have a lot of friends to be with during happy times. I'm not good at expressing my true feelings. I always potray the good side of me. I can't tell to my friend's face that I dislike the way she bitch at me. Not a real true friend indeed. She ignores when we need help.. and come back begging for help from us when she is in trouble. She seems like a fake. Well I cannot distinguish between fake and real side of her...

We regret over a lot of things. We regret about not doing the best that we could. We regret for not helping with the things we should have helped. We regret for marrying the wrong person. We regret for choosing the path that leads us to agony. But yesterday, I regret of bursting my anger out to the people that I loved. I regret for not being able to hold my anger. I am disappointed with myself. I pray for your health and wellbeing always. Forgive me. 😓